No Longer Rejecting Myself

Bullying, Cancellations, and Learning to Love Myself Anyways

A collage of Margeaux at various ages, ranging from 8-19

Hello dear ones,

For those who’re new here, this is my “Wounding/Wanting Diary” series for paid subscribers. Right now you can get 33% off of monthly and yearly subscriptions, bringing this down to $3.35/month. Click here for the discount. The first 50 people to upgrade to paid will receive some special snail mail!!

If you can’t afford a paid subscription, you can email me at hello@margeauxfeldman.com. I never want money to be an access barrier, and I need to set some boundaries with this writing. Thank you for your understanding.

Because of the nature of what I’m writing about, I want to offer a content note here: sexual trauma, rape, sexual assault, sex that occurred while drunk or high or both, slut shaming, bullying, cancellations. Please take care yourself after reading this writing.

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This is an essay about my lived experience being bullied, slut shamed, and ostracized as a teenager in the years before social media. And then my experiences, some twenty years later, going through two attempts to cancel and deplatform me. I usually try to offer a preview for free subscribers before they hit the paywall, but this is just too tender for me to do that. Thank you for your understanding.